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VOL. 26 July ISSUE YEAR 2025

Off the Beaten Track

in Vol. 26 - July Issue - Year 2025
Cleaning Wardrobe: The Unexpected Liberation
Rishabh Shah

Rishabh Shah

When I opened my cupboard recently, I didn’t expect what would unfold. I was just trying to get some order back. But the moment those doors opened wide, something else opened with them—some older part of me I hadn’t looked at in a while. It wasn’t just clothes that came out. It was fragments of identities, memories, moods. Each folded fabric held a version of me I had lived or left behind.
People often delay this task for weeks, even months—not because of laziness, but because there is a resistance to confront. Clothing doesn’t just cover the body—it holds memory, emotion, and sometimes, regret. Cleaning a wardrobe isn’t merely about tidying up; it becomes an excavation of identity.
That old shirt from a time when I felt lighter, freer. The formal jacket that still smells faintly of ambition. Traditional wear worn in celebration—or worn out by expectations. These aren’t just garments. They’re time capsules. They remind us of who we were, or who we were trying to be.
And then there are the corners. The dreadful ones. The top shelf where you almost fear what you might find. A tangled web of unused things—unread letters, torn envelopes, coins too “lucky” to throw away, expired ID cards, and mysterious keys to locks you can’t even remember owning. Ghosts, really. Not of others—but of your own life that has quietly gathered dust.
What begins as a physical task soon reveals itself to be a spiritual one: the sorting not just of garments, but of the soul.
And somewhere in the middle of all the sorting and folding, a realization quietly arrives: decluttering the wardrobe isn’t about becoming someone new. It’s about uncovering the space to finally be yourself again.
As I began pulling everything out, it struck me—this wasn’t just sorting objects. This was sorting through my own being. What do I really want to carry forward? What am I still holding on to, and why? Some clothes were easy to discard. Others weren’t. Not because I wore them, but because they held something emotional. That made the letting go harder—but also more important.
Decisions become mirrors. The clothes we keep are often the ones that align with who we are becoming, not who we were. The ones we release—no matter how expensive or sentimental—carry a silent permission to let go of outdated roles, expectations, or personas.
It was the special pile that taught me the most. The “I don’t know if I want to keep it” pile is where I faced my attachments. Clothes I hadn’t touched in years, yet felt guilty discarding. As if letting go of a kurta or a T-shirt was equal to letting go of a part of my identity. And maybe it was. But what if that part was already gone?
There was something deeply symbolic about wiping the shelves clean. Seeing them empty—utterly bare—felt like something inside me had cleared too. There was space now. Not just physically, but mentally. Emotionally.
This process wasn’t about minimalism. It wasn’t about trends or tidiness. It was a kind of inner detox. Like getting ready in the morning—not just to look presentable, but to be present. With each item, I wasn’t just deciding what to wear. I was deciding who I am now.
What surprised me was the joy. In the middle of what felt like a silent therapy session, there were moments of delight. Rediscovering things I’d forgotten I loved. Laughing at what I’d once thought looked good. Realizing how far I’ve come. In between the release and the nostalgia, I found something unexpected—lightness.
And by the end of it, I noticed something gentle had shifted. The cupboard looked neater, yes. But more importantly, it looked like me. It’s not just the wardrobe that’s transformed. It’s the person standing before it. Not the old me. Not the someday me. Just the me who stood there, freshly aware, uncluttered, and quietly real.
There’s more space not only in the closet, but in the mind. A sense of completion, of beginning afresh.
We think change requires something dramatic. A life event. A new job. A spiritual retreat. But sometimes, change begins in the most ordinary places. Like a wardrobe. And the only thing you need to do is open it—and be willing to see what’s really inside. Because sometimes, the simplest act—like cleaning out a cupboard—becomes the door through which clarity, courage, and calm walk in.

Author Rishabh Shah, MFN Trainer and Head of Operations of Daksha: rishabh.shah@daksha.net